Reflecting

Life changes when you become a parent. Not just because you have this little person who depends on you but because you see and experience things from a different perspective.

For the last eight months and seven days, I've learned a lot from Miles. For starters, I now understand the meaning of unconditional love. He has brought so much joy and happiness to mine and Mike's life that it's hard to imagine not having him here with us. His life has been full of MILEStones -- some of them I've shared on this blog and others I've kept to myself, but each one special.

I thought about Miles a lot today (as I usually do). I thought about how much he's changed in his short life, how he's so happy and manages to light up a room when he's in it, and I thought about the people he'll never have a chance to meet, especially his two cousins. I'd like to think I that I understood the pain Steve and Kelly and my sister and Chad experienced after losing my niece and nephew but I now know that I didn't fully understand.

Mike had class tonight so it was just Miles and I at home. After I changed him and he was all snug in his pajamas, I held him close and, instead of listening to music, I told him about the two little angels who I'm pretty sure are watching over him.

Happy Birthday, Tink.